Mother has succumbed.
- Mother: So just before I phoned we were watching The Mentalist...
- Me: Mmhmm
- Mother: It was very interesting. I just..
- Me: What?
- Mother: Does Lisbon know she is in love with Jane? One would think that they are married it if wasn't for the frustrating fact that they aren't involved with each other. Or maybe they are...I just don't know. I suppose we'll have to wait and see.
- Me: Now you know.
- Mother: Know what?
- Me: What 'feels' are.
- Mother: What is 'feels'?
- Me: That sensation that you're experiencing due to the Mentalist is feels. Trust me on this one.
- Mother: This is from that 'trumbling' site isn't it
“What’s your greatest struggle right now?”
“Fear of my writing. Sharing my writing, in particular.”
“Will you email me something you wrote tonight?”
“Less Fear” By Sade Johnson
America take rest
I was born No poet
Born laces to television archaic computer lemming games
Walmart target home depot banks
Big man take rest
I was born No lover
Born sage-less wise cracker
Abandoned lot mower for petrified native broken horn blowers
Savage take rest
I was born No tin man tight vested slave author
Born on No Puritanical pilgrimage not Lord wrought No Kings vestige
Youth take rest
I was born a silver-tongued tight fisted counter daughter
Fire starting ageist hippy
Empty gun waving barbiturate sipping
I take rest
I was born No fool
Earlier this week I’d been talking to a friend about why Rose was so amazing and well, excuse me if you have different opinions, better than the other companions. When I’d told him that I found I didn’t like Martha or Amy as much as Rose, hell I even loved Donna, he said, “It’s probably because…
I have to disagree with you.
In Amy’s case, a large part of who she was found it difficult to really express her feelings. You can see this mostly through her relationship with Rory; he gave her so much, but she never really gave a lot back. This is not a great representation of her feelings towards Rory - she DOES love him (so much), but it was always difficult for her to really express that. And I’m not saying that some of her actions were okay; like making the moves on the Doctor when she was “supposedly” engaged to Rory - but then again, this in itself shows how much she always struggled with her emotions. Also, she spent 15 odd years trying to prove to people that she wasn’t crazy, and that the Doctor WAS real. I think she has every right to be a little iffy about him; I mean, she’s the ‘Girl Who Waited’ - he left her waiting for so long. Amy and the Doctor’s relationship has always been so strange, and I think it’s all because of her title as “The Girl Who Waited”. She was deeply scarred and hurt by that very first time that she ever met the Doctor. She was only six years old, and it’s not exactly easy to convince adults that aliens actually exist when you’re at such a young age. And so I think it’s fair to say that waiting for him for so long had a huge psychological effect on her. And you cannot take everything at face value. What a person says does not always tell you a lot, I think what a person actions are are more crucial. One important thing that showed to me that Amy DID know the Doctor was the fact that she waited for him for so long - she believed in her “raggedy man” even when everybody else told her she was delusional. This was continued after The Big Bang Two - if she hadn’t remembered him, the Doctor wouldn’t be around today.
And in Martha’s case - I don’t think she ever said any thing that belittled the Doctor’s efforts without good reason to. Her quote that you used, “He’s brilliant, but he’s like fire. Stand too close and you get burned”, is borne totally out of her own experiences, and imo completely justified. From the beginning she was always second place to Rose, and I think she was justified in feeling hurt by the fact that the Doctor always felt the need to mention her; especially considering she fell in love with him. I mean, he kissed HER not the other way round. And it’s not exactly her fault that she fell in love with him; I mean, wouldn’t you? I never really thought she ever “belittled” the Doctor’s efforts - she always, ALWAYS appreciated what he did and ALWAYS did everything she could to help him out. And you know what??? I think out of any of the companions, Martha was about the only one who was brave enough to call him out on his shit (other than Donna) - I don’t think this is belittling at all. Because the Doctor is NOT perfect; he has SO MANY flaws which I don’t think a lot of his companions understand. Even Martha felt like this at the beginning. The Doctor treated Martha terribly while she was a companion; he never fully appreciated what she did for him or who she was until that very scene in which she told him she was leaving. She put up with so much, and yet no one seems to understand what she went through for him. She was never wrong to love the Doctor; sure it might have been bad for her, but it wasn’t wrong. In fact, it made her more human. One spectacular example that proves to me that she really knew the Doctor, was in The Sound of Drums and The Last of the Time Lords. SHE WALKED THE FUCKING EARTH FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR TO SAVE THE DOCTOR AND THE WHOLE BLOODY WORLD. She did this without any superhuman abilities, she was just a brilliant human being proving how wonderful she really is. And this quote from The Last of the Time Lords proves to me exactly the truth: that Martha Jones is a STAR (The Doctor himself said that so you should listen) -
I traveled across the world, from the ruins of New York to the fusion mills of China. Right across the radiation pits of Europe. And everywhere I went, I saw people just like you living as slaves. But if Martha Jones became a legend, then that’s wrong because my name isn’t important. There’s someone else. The man who sent me out there, the man who told me to walk the earth. And his name is The Doctor. He has saved your lives so many times and you never even knew he was there. He never stops, he never stays, he never asks to be thanked. But I’ve seen him, I know him. I love him. And I know what he can do.
Okay. That’ll do for now.